Gegen die Wand

It's quite difficult when you are destined to be in a fragile state of concentration
Like me.
I can't quite restrain myself from doing other things while I'm on something
That's really complicated eh.

Polishing my german is something I have yet not started.
Perhaps I WILL start right after I'm done with my school work.
Writing a speech, a legal and general essays, conducting and participating in a debate.
And that's probably just a quarter of the things I need to do.
It's more of a challenge for me though
Doesn't really sticks in my brain as a work.
I never work
The interpretation of work to me is
Doing something you have to do in order to gain or achieve what you want
Boo doesn't that sounds like a punishment

Let's put our state of mind on the brighter side
I thought love makes us all feel like a kid with a lollies.
I don't know
So here's a list of german words with love stuff (I hope it's the correct one :P)
- Liebesbrief
- Lebenslust
- Liebe ist blind

Ich liebe football ( I don't know how to say football in german)
:)

Free Time.

How fine is Life?

Oh that was for you to answer :)

Till Lindemann <3

What a nice lad.
He's not as loud and out there as most people would want him to be.
Well he's a poet.
A true one won't really put himself' 'out there'.
Well here are a couple of quotes from him that I adore.
Simplicity brings out the best of people.
That what I think at least.

'Loneliness sometimes gives me a quantity of creativeness - you're drinking another glass of wine and you're feeling even worse. Art doesn't work without pain; art also exists for compensating pain.'

'When I was an adolescent, I was obsessed with having many commercial things, cars, clothes, stupid things. Now that I have all that, I conclude/understand that the superfluous things can turn to you into a very stupid idiot-type. In East Germany there were very few things, but there was also a feeling of solidarity that no longer exists. Now we are up to the neck in consumption, the ego, the individualism. Now before friendship, it is merchandise.'

'The rolling R's didn't arise deliberately. It originated from itself because in that deep pitch you automatically sing that way. I'm no musician in the actual meaning. I don't know anything about instruments. But I'm supporting our music with my voice and lyrics well. It's a question of illustration, timbre and phonetics. We don't want to - for Heaven's sake - create a fascist-like style.'

'Love is like a flower; even the most beautiful kind dies.'

'You've got a kind of inner store. When things aren't going well, you just go inside and get a glass of travel preserves for your soul, open it and fill up on it.'

'To explain the lyrics would be to take away the whole attraction and afterwards perhaps the fans would even be disappointed. I would rather leave things in this area untouched so that everyone can bring their own interpretation and their own feeling to it.'

That's Till.
:)

Fräulein oder Frau.

I live on a small island.
Situated near my past-preference choice of country to live.
The population does not past a thousand of moving bodies.

I own a small fitting cottage.
On the inside is the basic need for a man to live.
In addition of materials needed for artistic purposes.
Living inside is my own self with two Persian cats, a schnauzer and a bunny.
I shall now change ‘my’ to ‘ours’

Around our cottage
There are vegetables planted
With some daisies and poppies
Just in case we need some refreshing view

It has been a while
The five of us living in the cottage
Doing our favourite things
It may be mundane
But not for the five of us

The game of cat and mouse
Just what I wanted
To suggest my friends that I am away in distance
But am I away from their memory

Cryptic forms of letters are being sent
To each of the acquaintances I have known
With pictures inserted in every envelope
I wait in the cottage for answers
For the prize I am looking for

30 years of life
30 years of walking, shouting, talking and etc.
My master asks ‘Fräulein oder Frau’
Accept my apology
Please, I can’t figure that out yet.

Is there one for me?
Will ‘it’ come searching for what I have been looking for?
Am I living with the right shadow?
Guiding the unknown
To my every doubt
My every query.

Fräulein oder Frau.

Melancholic

09' hasn't really shows me its' best part.

What Makes Us Become Such Greedy Man?

That's the question I can't bare to answer.
I know for a fact people move on with their lives with a tad pinch of greed and selfish-ness.
But does it really pays off in the end.
The other day, I encounter a greedy mess as nobody had given me information while I was absent from the class.
Those bollocks...
But then it occur to me that maybe they wanted me to fail or made a joke out of myself.
Can't figure exactly what is it.

Maybe it's better to be alone.
No competition, no criminal activities.
Well unless you are battling with the ghost on your back ;P

Happy Holidays!

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays.
Hee.

As joyful as that sounds, it was a wreck when it come to the last minute Christmas shopping.
Glad it's over. :)

Hmm lets see so far I've received:
- a cow cute pillow
- A reindeers box
- 2 shoes keychain
- A board game
- A pocket mirror

And the best gift is
- Megadeth CD!!!

Hah that saves me from people thinking I'm 10!
It's pretty nice but I wish I have someone to share with.
Like a good friend

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Baby I'm Yours :)

Baby, I'm yours (Baby, I'm yours)
And I'll be yours until the stars fall from the sky,
Yours, until the rivers all run dry
In other words, until I die
Baby, I'm yours (Baby, I'm yours)
And I'll be yours until the sun no longer shines,
Yours, until the poets run out of rhyme
In other words, until the end of time


I'm gonna stay right here by your side,
Do my best to keep you satisfied
Nothin' in the world could drive me away
Cause every day, you'll hear me say
Baby, I'm yours (Baby, I'm yours)
And I'll be yours until two and two is three,
Yours, until the mountains crumble to the sea
In other words, until eternity

Baby, I'm yours(Til the stars fall from the sky)
Baby, I'm yours(Til the rivers all run dry)
Baby, I'm yours(Til the sun no longer shines)
Baby, I'm yours(Til the poets run out of rhymes)

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It's funny how I never post this with the intention of dedicating it to some bloke.
Ahh it's still a brilliant song.
Love both the original and by the monkeys and 747

Trying to think of nice Christmas gift to my family but unfortunetly I suck at presents.
It's too bad they're not really interesting in handmade crafts or cookies ( I don't know about the cookies though)
Probably going to get some funny things with Christmas theme on it.
Or not.
I wish I could spend the holidays in London or Sheffield :)
But my result aren't as well as it shuld be, though I'm thankful it's pretty good
Goodbye scholarship, Hello empty bank account.

What I want for Christmas?
Nothing much.
Just people who cares about me and really do enjoy being with me.
I don't need fancy presents (although that'll still be nice)
But really, I just want even A nice person to stay with me.
Can't ask too much so A is much better than hundreds of ungrateful, pretentious and I-could-care-less friends.

I miss Daniel.
He's been my true best friend since I was 2years old.
How time flies.
Ahh life goes on right?

I'm indifferent.

It's funny how a trip to a hair saloon would have change someone's thoughts about another.
As daft as it sounds, it's possible.
In fact I have witnessed it myself.

What a tragedy.

Not for that particular individual though, tragedy for me.
Elaboration is not really vital in addressing one without them knowing it.
Is it jealousy?
Perhaps I just missed the company of a bunch of people that can sit and listen to me rambling about random stuff.
Or
I just hate it when they ignore you because the light on their phone starts flashing.
1 new message'
Probably their new lads.

On a greener side.
Well not really.
I just found couple of things that have met its' expiry date in my room.
Pretty astonishing as I never knew a lipcare product has an expiry date.

I missed all the people I have talked to before.
Well not all of them, only partials, maybe.

* Now imagine me talking to you about all of the things stated above in an english accent. Pretty delightful eh? :) *

Early

It's way too early for me to be up now.
Waiting patiently(Im-) for my games to be downloaded.

No one should rant about illegal downloading because The Best Things In Life Are Free!

I love that movie. :)

Pardon me for being in touch with my feelings

Haha.
That is probably the coolest line on tv.

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When I listen to 'Parting Gift', I get this funny feelings.
It's been a whole month since we have successfully ignored each other.
Or you have successfully ignored me.
It's amusing to think about how we met or known each other.
How one silly text leads to a bad end.
I am not manifesting any regret or hatred upon you or the situation itself.
It wasn't fair if I said I couldn't care less about it but there's no space for another run.
It was delightful to have experienced such interesting feelings and activities
but I guess that's just it.
I do miss the constant text and how we are in awkward silence everytime we are supposed to say 'GoodBye'
I just wish we could see each other for the very last time without either one of us getting hurt.
There's no need to be a conversation, just the presence of us both will do.
Nobody has said life is fair so why stressed on this silly little things.

Should have listen to...
Damn it, no regrets :)

Intervention pt. 1

I was high in happiness when I stepped into my room.

The familiar smell of the oil pastels trapped inside my closet.

The amp wires tangled on the floor.

Everything was in line with my plan.

Then my mom told me 'The TV is broken, they'll come and fix it by next week'

Shattered by the news (not really), I went to my room and sat quietly.

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What a day.